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Sep. 24th, 2005 @ 02:13 am
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did you ever wonder what the future will hold? did you ever think about the pasts ideals we look at as uncivilized and think we hold so much of a higher standard over this. slavery took place in america less than 150 years ago. segragation took place less than 50 years ago. racism is still alive today, but in a quieter fashion. i've wondered what we are doing currently that will be looked upon from generations to come as uncivilized, personally i think it will be gay bashing. believe me i am in no way opposing this. i for one use the term "gay" "fag" and "queer" all the time. these terms are rarely even used to describe a person's sexuality. it is usually used to describe an action or event. i think future generations will look back on this and frown up it. they will not be able to understand why our government is opposing gay major so much. they will not be able to understand why we as a majority of a country would not accept the idea of gay marriage. i won't be able to leave them anything of use because i can't explain it terms they will understand why it is as big of deal as it is. i am highly against gay marriage and even more opposed to gay adoption. i don't believe in the theory of gay parents "turning their kids gay". i think that is ludacris, but i wouldn't my parents to be gay. i do believe i think in this way because i have grown up in a family where gay is wrong and straight is right. gay is against the bible, and it was adam and eve not adam and steve. i do however thinkk that the opposition of society to this way of life is just unfair to an adopted child to grow up with. i'm adopted, and i would never have wanted to be adopted by a gay family. i would be embarrassed of my family, and i think adopted children have to go through enough mental anguish than to have to deal with that also. i however couldn't really give a shit if we allow gay people to marry, i don't think it denounces how sacred marriage is. we can get married in vegas on the drop of a dime and we have dennis rodman wearing wedding dresses around and marrying pamala lee for a night, or whatever went down with that. i just feel i don't have a right to tell two gay people they can't get married, as long as they leave me alone and keep to themselves that's fine with me. i am in no way supporting homosexuality, and am probably the most homophobic person ever, but hey what do i care if two gay people get married. that's their choice, this is america after all isn't it. it's still the land of the free right? i just hope we can learn from history and look at the whole picture when taking on future tough issues. we need to learn from history not repeat it. we don't need another holocost, we don't need another world war, we need to focus on number one. on us. fix american problems, then worry about the rest of the world. that's my 2 cents. take what you want. i'm out peace.Current Mood:  drunk Current Music: jay-z "the black album" |
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ya so i dislike school alot. it is pretty stupid. my math class is seriously so bad. i want to drop it, but hey it's only a semester i guess i can suffer though that. i have no idea what my first english paper is supposed to be on. we have to analyize three short stories or something stupid like that. i liked my last english class i had when we actually got to write about issues and things that mattered to us. not some gay ass short stories. i am ready for school to have a break....already. i did get a new car if you didn't know. i like it alot. as for other news....there really isn't any. nothing has happened. still working at walgreens, still driving to iu-k, still with chelsey, still hanging out with the same old people. english class has started i'm off to play some pinball...peaceCurrent Mood:  drained Current Music: listening to bitch talk about edger allen poe |
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if you ever wanted to ever be anything there will always be somebody that'll shoot down any dream there will always be haters that's the way it is hater niggas marry hater bitches and have hater kids they gunna have to take my life before they take my drive
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so school sucks most definently. i wish it was just over. on the lighter side of things i did get the new kanye cd a couple days ago. it is tight. i like it alot. i wish i wasn't here until 7 o'clock on the two nights i come to this damn place. so tomorrow night i have to train the new girl at walgreens...should be tons of fun...no. so chelsey needs to get back from cali. they get home sunday and i am going down to the airport and suprising her. i hope that goes well..my luck i won't be able to find the gate or something. i guess i have flown out of there enough to know where everything is. i hope i don't get pulled off to the sides and frisked like i did in london a couple years ago...that was fun. well i'm going to go try and pay attention to this stupid class. laterCurrent Mood:  pissed off Current Music: stupid teacher talking |
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so tomorrow is going to be quite homosexual. first day of school. i don't want to go. it's going to be retarded and a waste of gas driving. man i hate school. but on the bright side they did hire someone at walgreens, and i get paid wednesday and it's going to be a phat ass check; which is most definently cool. one more year of this town. bring it on. my goal this semester...3.3 suck on these nuts iu-k. i'm out..bitches
Aug. 22nd, 2005 @ 08:01 pm
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1. Elliot Cohee
2. Andre Ambrose
3. Ginny Pearson
4. Jeremy Applton
5. Chelsey Day
6. Allison Toulk
7. Ben Beard
8. Ashley Carden
9. Maggie Lees
10. Elise Heirs
11. Chris Frankum
12. Kenny O'Brien
13. Alyssa Day
14. Ben Beard
15. Katie Murphy
16. Dan Hight
17. Leigha Shields
18. Amber Mattingly
19. Jessa Smith
20. Jenna Rice
~What would you do if you had never met No. 5?
haha...well...my life would be hella different. hella different. love you baby.
~What do you honestly think of No. 10?
elise. wow..i've known you along time. you were my jr high love. great girl. good times.
~Would or did No. 19 and No. 8 go out?
hot lesbians right there
~Have you ever liked No. 3?
haha. ya. ginny and i dated our sophomore year.
~If No. 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know?
you're my best friend boy. love you man.
~Would No. 2 and No. 11 make a good couple?
dre day and figgy...mos def
~Describe No. 7 in 3 words:
be my boo
~Do you think No. 12 is hot?
well..kenny...you are a sex mother fucker
~Would No. 1 and No. 17 make a lovely couple?
they would fight all the time
~What do you think of when you see No. 8?
v-day dance freshman year
~Tell me something humiliating about No. 11.
he missed his mommy and went home from my sleepover in like 6th grade
~Do you know any of No. 6's family members?
for a long long time
~What's No. 20's favorite color?
i used to know at one point
~On a scale of 1-10 how cute is No. 14?
like 3492342984292
~What would you do if No. 4 just professed their undying love for you?
call him a fag and bitch slap him
~Who is No. 16 going out with ?
no one
~Is No. 9 a boy or a girl?
gay question...girl last i checked
~Would No. 18 and No. 4 make a good couple?
well that was fucking weird....i thought they did
~Who do you think No. 15 would be great with from this list?
i liked dan and katie being together
~When was the last time you talked to No. 12?
tonight
~What is No. 3's favorite band?
no idea
~Does No. 2 have any siblings?
a sister
~Would you ever date No. 6?
haha i liked her once. but no way alli and i are too good of friends
~Would you ever date No. 7?
he makes my pants into a big tent
~Is No. 15 single?
yes
~What is No. 20's last name?
rice
~What is No. 5's middle name?
renee
~What is No. 10's fantasy?
haha. hrm. elise would like to bone the guy off of channel 1
~Where does No. 9 live?
on a road behind max pitts
~Would you make out with No. 13?
well once again that is weird. haha.
~Are No. 5 and No. 6 best friends?
friends yes...best friends no
~Does No. 7 like No. 20?
i don't think they know eachother
~How did you meet No. 18?
through jerm
~Is No. 12 older than you?
no
~Is No. 1 or 17 the sexiest person alive?
leigha i love you...even though jerm gets mad when i text message you that hahaha
Aug. 17th, 2005 @ 11:27 pm
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so there hasn't been too much going on in my life. i'm just working crazy amounts. i can't wait for a day off that would be freaking awesome. i worked 10 hours today, and the sad thing was that it didn't even seem to be that long. it's sad when 10 hours goes by fast. so less than a week til i go back to school not excited about that. a lady i work with has lung cancer. she's a nice lady, and i feel really bad for her. but honestly walgreens you better hire someone before i slap a bitch. speaking of slapping a bitch, i about beat this lady's ass today at work. she got pissed at me because of something she did and the pharmacist and my manager had my back it was kind of funny, but i was still pretty pissed.
(alot of randomness i know, but that's my life)
( boring survey thing )
Aug. 17th, 2005 @ 12:06 am
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less than two weeks til school starts. that is complete bullshit. i am sick of working. it is annoying. i wish i wasn't going to school at damn iu-k. oh well. one less year of college i guess. i am sick of school. i just want a solid job so i can start buying no shit. that'll be sick. i have been thinking alot of what i want to do for the rest of my life, and once again i am not sure. i wish i could decide on something that will make me happy. i would like to teach, but it doesn't make that much money, i would like to start my own business, but i wouldn't know what to start. so it looks like i'm one of those lost college students still.
Aug. 11th, 2005 @ 11:31 am
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so this car thing is really pissing me off. i'm going to get a new car. it's a 98 grand prix gtp. it's nice. i like it....on the other hand...the insurance company that totaled my old car is totally trying to screw me so we have to sue them. which would be kind of cool if i was like 10 and couldn't drive the car anyway. because when you were 10 it was badass to sue someone. but now i realize this is a long drawn out process which could take up to several months. which is bad because this is several months in which i have no money to make two car payments. oh well. everything will work out. it always does. i am going to go get in the shower now and keep enjoying my day off. later on.
Aug. 9th, 2005 @ 03:13 pm
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ya sooooo...i haven't updated this thing in awhile. i've been working alot because this lady i work with is in the hospital because she has like aids or something...not really but she does have lung cancer they thing or tb....that'd be good. yeah....no.....so anyway the jedi is offically totalled, so that means i have to get something else, i've looked at 2 cars and am decided between the two. i like both of them pretty well. i dunno what i am going to do about it yet. the insurance copy is still being a douch about my old car, so i get to talk to their bitch asses on monday. this fucking movie they are filming in peru is really starting to piss me off. it is stupid...no one is ever going to fucking watch it and people are making a big deal about it. trust me it is going to be lame as fuck. you'll see. no one is going to become movie stars, peru is not going to be famous. none of that shit. this is going to be the same shithole as it has always been. way to waste alot of money on a stupid ass movie idea. way to go fuckers. i'm out of this biatch. PEACE
Aug. 6th, 2005 @ 08:07 pm
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circus is over for good. finally. sad and glad. took alot of time. but was a big part of my life. it's brought alot of good shit to my life, but it's brought plenty of annoyances. i'm ready to move on. i'm ready for indy, i'm ready to be out of this town. i'm ready to be out of the drama, the fake ass people who show love to your face, but talk shit behind your back. i'm over all of it. i'm ready to start a new chapter in my life diary. lets rock. be yourself if no one else. one love. out.
Jul. 24th, 2005 @ 02:36 pm
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1. smoked a cigarette - yes
2. smoked a cigar - yes
3. kissed a member of the same sex - hell no
4. crashed a friend's car - No
5. stolen a car - no
6. been in love - Yes
7. been dumped - yes
8. shoplifted - no
9. been fired - No
10. been in a fist fight - ya
11. snuck out of your house - yes
12. had feelings for someone who didnt have them back - ya
13. been arrested - No
14. made out with a stranger- yea
15. gone on a blind date - ya
16. lied to a friend - ya
17. had a crush on a teacher - no
18. skipped school - yea
19. slept with a co-worker - no
20. seen someone die - Nope
21. been on a plane - Yes
22. thrown up in a bar - yea
23. taken painkillers - Yeah
24. love someone or miss someone right now - yes very much on both
25. laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by- Yes
26. made a snow angel - yes at college we were really drunk
27. played dress up - Ya
29. been lonely - yea
30. fallen asleep at work/school - all the time
31. used a fake id - ya
32. felt an earthquake - no
33. touched a snake - yea
34. ran a red light - yea
35. been suspended from school - ya
36. had detention - ya
37. been in a car accident - yea
38. hated the way you look- ya
39. witnessed a crime - Yeah
40. pole danced - well duh
41. been lost - yea
42. been to the opposite side of the country- yeah alot of times
43. felt like dying - yeah
44. cried yourself to sleep - ya
45. played cops and robbers - duh
46. karaoke - fuck ya
47. done something you told yourself you wouldn't - yes
48. laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose - Yes haha
49. caught a snowflake on your tongue - ya
50. kissed in the rain - Yeah
51. sing in the shower - everyday
52. made love in a park - well...not yet
53. had a dream that you married someone - yea
54. glued your hand to something - Yes
55. got your tongue stuck to a flag pole - not to a pole
56. worn the opposite sex's clothes - yeah...chelsey knows all about it
57. been a cheerleader - no
58. sat on a roof top - Ya
59. didn't take a shower for a week - no
60. ever too scared to watch scary movies alone - No
61. played chicken - i'm not retarded
62. been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on - i've done it to other people but never had it happen to me
63. been told you're hot by a complete stranger - ya
64. broken a bone - ya alot
65. been easily amused - Definitely
66.laugh so hard you cry - yea
67. mooned/flashed someone - ya
68. cheated on a test - yes
69. forgotten someone's name - all the time
70. slept naked - yea
71. gone skinny dipping in a pool - ya alot of times
72. fallen for your best friend but they didn't like you back - yes
73. blacked out from drinking - haha...well yes...i don't know if i can count them with my fingers
74. played a prank on someone - yea
75. Prank called someone - just a lil bit
Jul. 22nd, 2005 @ 02:25 am
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today was really fun. me, chelsey, kenny, and molly went to kokomo beach, had some mic d's, and starbucks. after that chelsey and i hung out til she had to go to practice. i'm really glad i'm not in fly about right now. i couldn't take practicing as much as they do. i don't want to do circus anymore really. today not working was really nice. i'm going to bed now since our air is fixed and my room finally feels good. peace.
Jun. 27th, 2005 @ 10:42 pm
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it's been awhile since i've updated this thing. i've been really busy with work, circus, and other things. i am really happy with everything right now. there are just a few things that i would change(but those are pretty unrealistic): being rich, not having a job, having an inground pool, moving to indy...yeah i'll keep those on my hopes and dreams list. the circus roadshow was really hot, but it was alot of fun. we get to do it all again in 2 weeks. i want to see war of the worlds. tomorrow i finally have a day off, so hopefully i can find someone to go swimming. i'm going to go finish watching the nascar race. later.
Jun. 26th, 2005 @ 04:24 pm
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i n f o r m a t i o n
1. name: billy
2. single or taken: taken
3. sex: male
4. birthday: dec 3
6. siblings: Only child
7. hair color: blonde
8. eye color: blue
9. shoe size: 10 ½
10. height: 6’1’’
r e l a t i o n s h i p s
1. who are your best friends?: ell, dh, frankum, dre, twiz
2. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yes
f a s h i o n | s t u f f
1. where is your favorite place to shop: American Eagle
2. any tattoos or piercings: negative
s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs?: nope
2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: garnier
3. what are you most scared of?: dying
5. who is the last person that called you?: April
6. where do you want to get married?: in peru indiana
7. how many buddies are online right now?: 23
8. what would you change about yourself?: i would like to be tan, my hair grow faster, and i would like to gain some weight
f a v o r i t e s
1. color: navy blue
2. food: bbq chicken pizza
3. boys names: chris
4. girls names: erin, karma
5. subjects in school: P.E., health duh
6. animals: dogs
7. sports: football and basketball
h a v e | y o u | e v e r
1. given anyone a bath?: we won't talk about that
2. smoked?: yea
3. bungee jumped?: no
4. made yourself throw up?: ya
5. skinny dipped?: ya
6: ever been in love?: yes
7. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: no
8. pictured your crush naked?: well duh
9. actually seen your crush naked?: ya
10. cried when someone died?: ya
11. lied: ya
12. fallen for your best friend?: ya
13. been rejected?: ya
14. rejected someone?: ya
15. used someone?: ya
16. done something you regret?: ya
c u r r e n t
clothes: billabong polo, ae cargos, pac sun sandles
make-up: dude...i'm a guy
annoyance: momma in my room
smell: sugar cookies
favorite group/artist: who? mike jones?
desktop picture: some pac sun desktop with a hot chick on it
book you're reading: uhh...i don't read
in cd player: a burnt rock cd
in dvd player: be cool
l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: chelsey
hugged: chelsey
you imed: kenny
you yelled at: chelsey
you kissed: chelsey
o p p o s i t e | s e x
what attracts you: smile, eyes, dress, personality
last person you slow danced with: chelsey
makes you laugh the most: DH
makes you smile: chelsey
who do you have a crush on: i dunno
d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: i used to
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: hell no
wish you were younger: yeah
cried because someone said something to you?: probably
N u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: once
of hearts i have broken: haha well...i dunno
of girls ive kissed: well we figured this up a couple weeks ago it was like 23 i think
of guys ive kissed: i'd have to say 0
of continents you've been to?: 3
of tight friends: 5
of cds i own: alot
of scars on my body: umm...alot
F i n a l | Q u e s t i o n s
1. do you like fillings these out?: sometimes
2. gold or silver: gold bling bling bitch
3. what was the last film you saw at the movies?: star wars on opening night fuckers
7. favorite cartoon/anime?: sponge bob square pants fuckers
8. what did you have for breakfast this morning?: i woke up at 12:30....
10. who would you love being locked in a room with?: chelsey
11. could you live without your computer?: hell no
12. would you color your hair? i dunno maybe darken it...but i kind of like being blonde theres not many guys that are..i like to be different
13. could you ever get off the computer?: what?
14. habla espanol? not really
15. how many people are on your buddy list?: 178
16. drink alcohol? we getting bent tonight....
Jun. 19th, 2005 @ 04:19 pm
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weeeeell...this hell work of work is finally over. thursday night me and dh camped out and got bent and i had to work this next day. needless to say it wasn't enjoyable. i didn't want to be there at all. last night i finally got a good night of sleep. that made me happy. today is 11 months for chelsey and i. we are going to kokomo to go out to eat and hang out tonight. it should be alot of fun i am excited i haven't got to see her hardly at all this week. i need to do something special for her tonight but i don't know what...i'll think about that after i do this. i need to hang out with some people i haven't seen in along time. i miss my old friends sometimes, but then i realize that is just a part of growing up and moving on. i can't describe to you all how much i just wish my life was fast forwarded one year because then i would be moving to indy and getting the hell out of here. i want to be down there chillin in an appt. with my boy. it's going to be sick. it's like the feeling i had to go to purdue all over again. i liked that feeling but i didn't like the feeling of being at purdue when i got there and felt the absence of all my friends. i just had my new friends there, which they were all cool, but it just wasn't the same. alright well i'm going to go give the jedi a wash and fix my system. holla at cha boiy.
Jun. 18th, 2005 @ 12:33 pm
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work sucks. i mean my job isn't bad...but just working so much sucks. i hate the feeling that i'm growing up. i tried to use the excuse to my mom that i was just a kid the other day...then she reminded me that i was 19 and out of high school. now that feeling fucking sucked. i want to go back to last summer forever. being 18 and not having a job and wasting my summer away. it was the shit. i loved it. i made the best of the time i had, but i just wish i could do it again. i remember when i was little saying that i couldn't wait to grow up. i had no idea of what growing up entitled. i wish i could take all of those times i said that back. i liked high school. it was fun. i just kind of wish i had a different class. my class was full of douche bags. i sometimes wish i could go back to high school, but then i realize that it sucked at the time, and never want to go back. especially now with brimbelly as the ass. prince.(that's what we'll call him for the time being) he's a douche and a half. i dislike him. he's fat and would suck the dick of any of his baseball players. i hated baseball and told him that once so he hated me thereafter. oh well. i can't help the fact i find people standing around in a field waiting for something to happen boring. i mean in soccer people are always moving and something is going on and people say that is boring to watch...but seriously in baseball 3/4ths of the time nothing is happening and people are standing around. so i would say that is a hell of alot more boring than soccer. well i think i'm going to go take a nap...i haven't done that in a long time so that sounds good. later on.
Jun. 14th, 2005 @ 08:10 pm
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it's been awhile...i've been really busy. working alot lately. i've been really happy lately. everything is great in my life. great girlfriend, great friends, great times. i couldn't ask for anything more. this has been such a great summer so far. i'm sure it will just keep getting better. i've never been happier. i don't want the summer to end. i don't really feel like going back to school. it's such a drag. it just seems so pointless sometimes. oh well. friends going to iu-k next year. i can't wait another year to be at iupui. i'm going to go do something productive..ok probably not, but i'm out of things to say..later
Jun. 12th, 2005 @ 08:03 pm
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it's been awhile. been busy...me and dh have been swimming all week. been fun..got some sun..happy about that. got some new glasses, look tight i think. dan and i have been hanging out alot lately. good times. i'm glad we've been chillin alot lately. it's fun when me chels murphy and dh hang out. last night me and jerm hung out for the first time in along time. i miss my old friends, that's the only thing i miss about high school. and the biggest news of all....chelsey got a cell phone finally...i'm proud of her. haha. well i'm off to my baby's house, peace.
Jun. 8th, 2005 @ 12:21 pm
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